Can you feel it

Sometimes you have a weird feeling. Its kinda hard to describe, but maybe you recognize this feeling: you want something. You want something really bad. It's not a bag, a dress or a yummie cookie. Its something you can not touch. You want it so bad, that you can only think about that the whole day and night. When youre sleeping, youre dreaming about it. When someone says a word that makes you think of it, you get totally quiet. You dont know what to say. And when someone says, hey, youre quiet! What's up? You dont know what to say. It's a weird feeling. It can make you happy if you get what you want, but if you dont get it, it can make you very sad. Or desperate. Because when the only thing you really really want cant be given to you, you get desperate. Because, for example, when the only thing I want right now is a cookie, and I dont get it, it makes me sad. And I think of it even more. It makes me feel like a nobody, because I want it that much. It's a weird feeling. I hope you dont have this feeling... I have this feeling for 2 years now, and I hope it will go away and that my dream will come true. Sometime.