Get me away from here, I'm dying

Hi

I dont feel very good today. It was not so cool at school. I feel very different, like I dont belong there. I was walking through the hall and people were laughing at me. Maybe because I didnt looked like them? Because I dont wear the same boring clothes? It can make me so angry. But when someone laughs, I dont know what to do. They dont even know me! I háte them. I just feel.. left. Or alone. I dont know. Its just no good. And to make it a little bit worse, my best friends sort of left me. Last year we were really best friends. We did everything together, at school and at home. We went shopping, doing a phótoshoot , sleepovers and much more. But now we are not in the same class anymore. She has made new friends. That I dont care, but she is just not talking to me anymore. It makes me feel so stupid. And I get only more sad when I see them together, doing the exact same thing I did with her. And she has changed. First, she was very sweet and crazy. But now she's becoming a bitch, and she thinks everything is weird. I dont know her anymore. I was so happy when I met her, finally, someone who is also like me! But now its gone. And I stopped fighting for her, because I know she dont wants me.

And there were new people on our school. They were laughing at my too, and they were looking at me the whole time. But not in a good way. I was wearing my moccasin boots. I have shoesize 42,5 (eur), and that's not very small, I know. And I heard them saying: 'Omg, she has very big feet! Iewl, she's ugly. And her shoes are ugly. All the people here are ugly!'. They dont know that Im very insecure. They could've made me cry.


xoxo